EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON

I thought I first should start off by a apologising for not writing last week. My life at the moment has just been crazy and honestly I haven't been in the best writing mood. But I hope you have had an amazing week and that you took each day with great stride.

A lot has happen this week for me, things that where good and other things that weren't so good. It was the of learning and reconfirming my belief that everything happens for a reason. No matter how painful or ordinary the situation was it had to happened for some reason, if for learning or reconfirming, it was meant to happen. There was many situations this week with not only becoming OK with where my body was at illness wise, but also coming to terms with a situation and relationship I had had.

At the start of the week I was so lost with everything that was happening, the progress I had been making was starting to come crashing down. We found out that physically my body was still doing its old pattern of not coping, and my adrenals were just basically shot. I didn't take the news so well and I just became more frustrated and stressed.

Then in the process of all this a situation that I had had rose to a for front, and people instantly jumped to conclusions on the matter. People started judging from left right and centre and I had no idea how it had happened. This is where I would like to make my point and something I would like you to try in your daily life.

Everyone is going through their own journey, battles and learnings. We all have our ways of coping and there is always a reason for what we are doing, no matter how much we say there is no reason. 

There is always a reason for why that girl parties to much, or sleeps around. There is a reason for why that guy is angry and a real jerk. There is a reason why that guy cheated on that girl. There is reason for why that guy or girl is so serious. There is a reason for why that girl wears makeup. There is a reason for everything but we instantly make up our own conclusions, judgements and labels on the matter.

But what would happen if we took a step back and thought you know what there is a reason for why this happened or is happening. Lets take the situation of why she sleeps around so much, there is so many reasons for why this can be happening, ones that you wouldn't instantly consider. She could just feel really lonely and likes the attention. She could be really self-conscious and wanting to feel wanted. She could be dealing with so many things at home and within herself, that she just wants to escape. She also just could not know what is right or wrong, because thats just what people around her do.

Do you see that when you take the step back you start to see that there is a lot more happening in this situation, then your judgement of just saying she's a slut or whatever you would call her. Yes most of time we instantly want to judge the matter if it is our business or not. But what if you did take that step back? Would you judge the situation the same way? This is such a little thing but can make the biggest difference, and honestly save someone a lot of suffering. This doesn't make the situation nor right nor wrong, it just is what it is.

So this week I had to take a step back from my life and everything that was happening, and it did help quite a lot. Yes, I have to also admit yoga helped too but taking that little step back made a huge difference. I started to feel a sense of peace about everything that had happened, and was at peace with the situation I had with another person. So I ask you now where are you doing this in your life, where you are making the judgements? Could you perhaps just take a step back? If you were to take the step back would it change how you see the situation? But also just remember no matter what, its nor right, nor wrong, it just is what it is. 

I hope you enjoyed this piece, and that you do apply this simple but life altering technique.

Keep smiling

XOXO

The Girl With The Red Shoes 

Ps. Sorry if there was any errors :)

VALENTINES DAY, LONELY NO MORE

As Valentines days draws near and peoples hopes come true I want to remind the lonely ones that your dreams can come true too.

The people that know me well, know whenever there is something to celebrate I always want to do it with a bang. So as Valentines day is only six days away I utterly exited to celebrate. Though I have no loved one (cough. cough Boyfriend) I am surrounded by people I love and that is who I'm going to celebrate with, and share my love. Yes originally Valentines day is know as a day to consummate, share and have a reason to buy roses, chocolate, rings, have sex and whatever others do on Valentines day. But it is also a day and a reason out of all the other 364 days in a year to share love and love others.

A thing my friend said is that she didn't want to celebrate it or feel the need to because it just in her mind stated that she was a lone and not with anyone. I know that this is probably also the case for many, many others. But have no fear I have a reminder for you that you also have friends who probably are in the same boat or that you can celebrate with, and if you feel like you have no friends then you have family.

So why not make a day of it buy chocolate and share with friends, have your own dance party, buy yourself roses, remind your friends and loved ones how much you appreciate and love them. Don't make it a day to pity yourself for being alone, have fun with it and share the love around, because everyone always needs some loving in their life.

So you may be wondering what I'm doing on this Friday coming, well I have school but I plan to remind all my friends how much I appreciate them and love them, have a lunch time filled with chocolate and lollies. Then go see a movie with a few friends and just have an amazing time.

So what are you going to do? Are you going to sit at home, stuff your face with chocolate and pity yourself for not having a valentine, which I have to say is that persons loss. Or are you going to go and have a great time, with your boyfriend/girlfriend, friends, family or even yourself? Its up to you how you spend your time. You only have so many hours, days, weeks in a year and in your life time and wouldn't you want to spend everyday filled to the max with amazing goodness? So my last reminder  to you is to be open to the possibilities of all the things that this day could hold and just share the love.

Keep Smiling

Till next time

XOXO

The Girl With The Red Shoes 

THE WEEK OF CHANGES (Warning it is long)

I wanted to dedicate this blog to the people that have been my life and are no longer, and the others that still are. People around us are the ones who shape us, they can change your life in the greatest way or the worst, but they are still there in your life for a reason, no matter what the circumstance is.

This week has been a life changing week for me in so many ways. Not only did I start Grade 11 but I also let go of two significant relationships in my life, made some hard life changing decisions and finally learnt to love accept myself for who I am through the whole process.

At the start of the week I was defiantly not in the best place mindset wise or friend wise. I had come to the point were I had to let two of my friends go in my life, and at first I was confused and in denial. These two relationships were very significant in my life and for a long time I had been holding onto them for dear life. But it came to the point were the friendship wasn't benefiting both parties and I had to accept the fact that I just needed to let it go. It wasn't easy but you probably have experienced something similar in your life so far, as many others do.

I know lately I have been writing a lot about acceptance and accepting through love, and thats because it is such a huge lesson that we all go through and one that I had been trying to understand  for a long time. So you may be wondering how did I come to the fact of actually expecting myself fully to the point were I'm writing about it. Well thats is a interesting story...

My friend said something to me while she was expressing how she was feeling and that was that I was selfish and that I put everything onto others and my friends. If its true or not thats besides the point. But I didn't take it as her being mean or anything, because that wasn't her fault she was just expressing how she was feeling. But the thing is that the negative side of my subconscious grabbed onto to these words expressed and sent me into a downward spiral of negative self talk. I kept saying to myself, how could I be so selfish and do this to my friends then I went onto saying that I'm a bad friend, I'm selfish, I feel so guilty, I can't believe I'm putting my friends through all this, etc... But the thing is that wasn't her fault at all thats just how I handled it and took it on.

But I think if it weren't for her saying those things then I wouldn't have come to the point of acceptance about myself that I have. Yeah sure she maybe could have said it a little nicer or differently, but everything happens for a reason and its ok.

So anyway I came to a point after crying, hysteria/delusion and then sleep, that I finally decided that who am is ok, and what others think about me is none of my business.  Seems simple when I write it but I didn't just wake up and think oh I accept who I am. I had been told for years how to accept myself, this week though one of my mentors told a simple enough line about just being ok with who you are.

I think how I fully took on what he said was because I had been developing and had started to become better, and was ready to move forward that I really heard the message this time. It was almost like a veil was just lifted and that I finally was able to see for the first time.

I didn't care what my body looked like, I just knew I needed to improve for myself. Thinking what people think about me is now none of my business. Going through what I went through is now ok because I far better off then if I didn't go through it.

I can't fully explain how I feel in words, but what this proves is that from every situation, moment, circumstance something comes from it. Also at the start of the week I was fully hating myself and thinking that I couldn't live another day with feeling lonely and not wanted, but now I feel better then I have ever felt. It's amazing how a single moment, day, week, month can totally change your life around.

I know this blog is long and if you have made it to this sentence then thank you for reading and putting in the time to read my blog. If your a friend of mine or no longer a friend, or whatever you have been in my life I want to thank you because every single time you are in my life you are adding, shaping me and I'm also learning. If you just a reader and don't know me then please know how much I appreciate you reading this. My mission in life is to help people, it may be a little hard sometimes or  some people may have their opinions, but even if just writing my advice and experiences and you take something from it that helps you that would be amazing.


I hope you enjoyed this blog

Till next time

XOXO

The Girl With The Red Shoes  

PS. I really want to start doing some fun blogs so if you have any ideas please let me know :) 

Accepting in the forgiveness of love.

I started a blog post today wanting to talk about how much my friendships suck and how by writing about it  I'm trying to accept my past and how much I hurt from it.

But instead I'm sitting here eating chocolate and listening to the sweet vocals of Gavin DeGraw blast through the speakers of my computer and I'm thinking how can I be listening to such a magical voice  that oozes love and talk about hate.  So I'm not going to try and accept this situation because sometimes accepting a situation just can't be done. So I'm going to address this situation with love.  This blog post today I'm writing as a way of healing, for myself to move forward and let the past go. Sometimes we have to let the past go to let the new history be written and I choose to do that but with love. 


So for my friends that turned into my bullies I forgive you with love and fully choose to love you for all that you are.

For all the people that said I was crazy, weird, fat, ugly, brace face, a witch, a depressed freak, stupid or just not worth it I choose to forgive you with love and accept you for you.

For my friend that doesn't want to return my messages or talk to me and who broke my trust I forgive you with love and accept you for all that you are.

For my friend that choose her and didn't see me for me I forgive you with love and accept you for all that you are.

For the people that don't even see me or care I forgive you with love and fully choose to love you for all that you are.

But most importantly I forgive myself for giving up and not fighting, for the guilt, the suffering, the self hatred and for all that I hold onto. I forgive myself with love and accept myself for all that I am and who I will be one day.

This is a very hard thing to do and as I'm writing this I'm having a inner battle with myself but at the same time I'm letting it go. Nothing that is negative can withstand love and the thing is we all go through our trials in life and sometimes accepting a situation can't be done by just trying to accept it, so try with love. 

I hope you all have a joy filled day

Till next time

XOXO

The Girl With Red Shoes 

THE ACCEPTANCE OF LETTING GO

“By letting it go it all gets done.  The world is won by those who let it go.  But when you try and try.  The world is beyond the winning.”  –Lao Tzu  

In my life at the moment I'm faced with the fact of  accepting situations that I really rather not even have to deal with. Though I rather not have to deal with them, I am faced with the truth that I have to and become at a state of grace with them. 

For those who do not know what a state of grace is, it is when you accept the situation fully and when it no longer has an effect or emotion attached to the situation. 

You see with how my body and mind works is when I'm battling with a circumstance that is needing accepting, clearing or needs to be changed. My body shows the complication in an ache, pain or in sickness. Everyone has this to an degree without knowing it, but my body seems to react a lot easier, and excels the situation. 

So what am I having to accept at the moment? Well...

• I'm having to accept that my body has been for over 2 years battling with fatigue and how I have been waking up tired mostly everyday for over 3 years. 
• How I spent 2 years mostly in my bed, and I how in my mind I feel like I'm losing time and I wasted my teenage years. 
• How I can't even go to a Yoga class with out feeling tired, and its yoga! a place that should spiritually and physically energise and relax you. 
• I also can barely hang out with my friends or organise a day to hang out with them because I don' know how I'm going to feel. 
• How my iron and hormones are unbalanced that I'm putting on weight and have pimples, even though I'm eating right and trying to do some exercise, though it makes me tired. 
• How my best friend is across on the other side of the world and I barely get to talk to her, and how I miss her everyday. 
• How I don't want be in this body anymore or in pain. 
• That school starts in 9 days and I want to start  the year off well and energised, but at the moment I don't feel the best. 

So right now at this point in my life I'm angry, frustrated and hurt, and it's honestly not helping me one single bit. Yes I' am so over it that at most times I just want to scream and shout for it to end. But being constantly angry and frustrated at it doesn't help. Because you are allowed to feel all those emotions, if your friend died of course you would be upset and you are allowed to grieve but there comes a point where you can't grieve anymore because you get caught up in it and it takes over so you can't move on. 

I don't have the answers for how to accept a situation just yet, I'm searching for them and with the help of  my mentor I'm slowly finding my way. But something that my mentor taught me with was when your caught up in a situation take a  step back mentally from your body and if you were your own coach or best friend what would you say to yourself? As an example,  everything is going to be ok. This too shall pass. Just let the anger go. What is a positive thing that happened today? What has this taught you? 

Ask yourself some of these questions and remember to be your best friend, because at the end of the day you are the only person you have. 

Also remember the key to change is to let go of fear, and accept what you can't change and change what you can't accept. 

 Till next time 

xoxo 

The Girl With Red Shoes 

I DARE YOU!

I want to ask you to do something, not for me but for yourself. Lets just say I dare you! 

I dare you to wake up tomorrow in anticipation that something GREAT is going to happen. 

It seems that a secret epidemic, that most people don't think of, is the topic around what people perceive of the day a head of them. Most people wake up hating or dreading what the day is going to hold, or going to sleep and saying life sucks and they hate it. This actually causes a lot of undercover problems in life then you would think. 

How many times have you woken up or gone to sleep saying....

"I don't want to got to school."

"I don't want to go to work."

"School sucks and I wish I didn't have to go."

"I hate this person, they ruin my life and I don't want to see them at all." 

"Life is just too hard."

"I'm never going to be great, I suck." 

and so forth...

ITS SIMPLE! If you are starting of the day with negativity then you are only going to let negative things happen. Thats how depression works and normal life situations. You get into a pattern, a cycle of negative talk and your life becomes, in more words then one, Crap. 

So think of this as a science experiment or a dare, and you know with a dare you always have to do it. 

So... I dare you to wake up tomorrow in anticipation that something GREAT is going to happen.

Just see what happens, you never know until you try. 

Till next time

xoxo

The Girl With Red Shoes 

P.S Keep wearing your red shoes of confidence :)

IS IT ALL FAKE?

This is a topic that was brought up by a friend of mine and it is something that I have dealt a lot with when I was finding my way out of my depression, and I also believe its something that we all go through at one point or another.


You hear adults talking a lot about it, saying when you're a teenager you are trying to find who you are, but I honestly think you never fully know who, or what you are. Yes you know you're a human being, but there is always the questions of what do I believe in? What should I be doing? Who am I? Am I doing the right thing in life, and so forth. This is where sometimes we get caught up in an act of who we think we should be, then who we actually are.

A thing my friend kept saying is, I don't know who I am anymore, no one will ever know me, I just don't know who I am. This is because she had been acting for such a long time, trying to be who she thought everyone would like, that she became blind and confused and was not able to remember what was reality and what was fake.

This happened with me. I had lived in such a dark mindset that I didn't know in a way what happiness was like, I only knew from what I had read, or who my old self was and other things like this. That sounds really heavy, but I think we all do have these moments, where we ask ourselves all the who/what/why questions, and that is OK.

So now you may be thinking whats the point to me writing about this. I'm no expert and even if it's just for my friend reading this, or only 5 other people reading this, I at least thought I should discuss it. But I also want to try and give you some advice or maybe a solution that will help you. I don't fully know how I got out of all my confusion, but I do know a few things that helped me, and if these don't work for you or you don't want to do them, then at least you had some awareness that you're not the only one. So...

1. Firstly, make a list of all the things you love/enjoy/like (These can be anything or something you like to do, there is no limits, this is only for you to see).
2. Make a list of positive attributes about yourself, what you like about yourself not what others do. (minimum 10 and there is no max, its harder then it sounds :) 
3. Think back to the last memory you can when you really felt like yourself. This may be recent, a while ago, or maybe you can't even remember and thats OK. 
4. Finally change the self talk. For example instead of saying, "I don't know who I am anymore." Say "I fully understand who I am and I appreciate myself." This may sound stupid and I thought it was completely stupid and a waste of time once a upon a time. But it does work, you just have to do it. 

So this is your choice, you can either choose to do 1 or even all the activities I suggested. Or you can do none and not even worry about it and forget about this all in under 5 minutes. But where would that get you? Even if this don't-know-who-I-am thing isn't something that's your problem or something that you have never faced before, these activities do help in general and give you just a little more clarity, and who doesn't want that? 

So its your choice :) 

Till next time 

XOXO

The Girl With Red Shoes