Accepting in the forgiveness of love.

I started a blog post today wanting to talk about how much my friendships suck and how by writing about it  I'm trying to accept my past and how much I hurt from it.

But instead I'm sitting here eating chocolate and listening to the sweet vocals of Gavin DeGraw blast through the speakers of my computer and I'm thinking how can I be listening to such a magical voice  that oozes love and talk about hate.  So I'm not going to try and accept this situation because sometimes accepting a situation just can't be done. So I'm going to address this situation with love.  This blog post today I'm writing as a way of healing, for myself to move forward and let the past go. Sometimes we have to let the past go to let the new history be written and I choose to do that but with love. 


So for my friends that turned into my bullies I forgive you with love and fully choose to love you for all that you are.

For all the people that said I was crazy, weird, fat, ugly, brace face, a witch, a depressed freak, stupid or just not worth it I choose to forgive you with love and accept you for you.

For my friend that doesn't want to return my messages or talk to me and who broke my trust I forgive you with love and accept you for all that you are.

For my friend that choose her and didn't see me for me I forgive you with love and accept you for all that you are.

For the people that don't even see me or care I forgive you with love and fully choose to love you for all that you are.

But most importantly I forgive myself for giving up and not fighting, for the guilt, the suffering, the self hatred and for all that I hold onto. I forgive myself with love and accept myself for all that I am and who I will be one day.

This is a very hard thing to do and as I'm writing this I'm having a inner battle with myself but at the same time I'm letting it go. Nothing that is negative can withstand love and the thing is we all go through our trials in life and sometimes accepting a situation can't be done by just trying to accept it, so try with love. 

I hope you all have a joy filled day

Till next time

XOXO

The Girl With Red Shoes